Awake

Heyho. Am i dead? Cause i don't feel like i was living right now. I think my brain got damaged cause it can't work properly. Its time for me to fly too another destination. Forget bout promises between me and her. She more important than anything. My head is mess. Sometimes i feel i wanna take it off for awhile. So i can't think of anything except the person who stole my heart. The true is, i miss you like crazy. I can't bear it alone but i'm working on it. I just flash the thing when we together so i can smile but not cries. I believe in you and have faith within it. Just to tell you how important you are in my life. Without you everything is mess. I can't even manage myself. People keep wake me up but i don't want to! This dream make me alive. And this my only dream that i will turn it into reality and no more fantasy. I love you angel from my nightmare. It's hard to breathe without you around. Come back love, i'll be waiting for you only. i'm desperately wanna hear your lovely voice that make me calm through the storm or what ever up coming. It's only you i want! You are everything to me. All i wanna do is loved you until the last breathe of mine. I love you Nor Aneelya Natasha.

28 Again

Yaw~ Today was our anniversary for 5month. And guess what, she here with me again. I love this feeling you know. I can call her again, heard her voice. Woah. This damn feeling really make me alive. I'm so happy when she around me again. Today i missing her like crazy. When i talked with her, i can't help being childish. Lol. Hope she don't mine. =_=" Oh yeah. I forget to tell, she got flu. Her voice really lovely! Woahh. She so cute today. I can't handle myself anymore. I'm in love again! ^_^ Happy Anniversary darling. You are my everything. Love you pumpkin. I want marry you!

Dream

Yaw~ How are you lately? Hope you are fine. It has been a month since last i heard your voice. Woah.. It's really killing me yaw. I can't stop my heart from missing you. Even in my sleep you are there. I'm afraid to close my eyes cause it seems real to me. A perfect life that i had, make me don't want to wake up anymore. Reality really frustrated. I'm on own. My future bride ran away. How can i face the upcoming life? Aigoo. Mom miss you. She keep asking why you didn't call home anymore. I'm speechless cause the question don't have an answer. I close my eyes, i saw you. Woah. I'm too pathetic. Love give you life, wonderful life. But, it can turn to hell within a second you live in nightmare. All i can do now is trust my heart, my love. Keep preying and hoping you will back one day. Now i close my eyes for awhile just too see your smile. (^_^) It's really beautiful. I love you Nor Aneelya Natasha. Goodnight angel.

24/7

I had great night last night. Have fun with all my friends. Chill around without problem in mind but, suddenly one of them asked bout me and my girl. No one know the story bout us. I just smile and said. "ok jer, napa?" then i go take a drink outside. How can i didn't think of you? every second, every minute, every hour, every day you in my thought. I reach you but you not there. I'm clueless, speechless lying around here without you. Losing soul, moving around with empty body. How can i still live? I miss you damn much. I've tried everything to get over you. But i can't! Seriously, i'm dying. I want hear you. I need you by my side all the time. If i've made mistake that can't be forgiving, i'm begging you forgiveness on my knee. I love you Nor Aneelya Natasha. Not with my heart only, but with my soul, my everything. I hope you read this entries. I'm so sorry.. Please come back..

I Miss You

I'm totally miss you dear.. How can i pretend like nothing happen while my heart being rape missing you. I've said i'm okay, i am not! It's really painful when you are not around. I miss your voice. I miss your laugh. I miss everything about you. I want you cause i really need you. All of memories being with you one by one came into my dream. How can i reach you again. Tell me! I love you so much. Seriously, i'm broken without you by my side.